Thursday, October 12, 2006

Fightin back the tears

I've been teary eyed almost constantly since yesterday.
We went to Target, and were looking around the baby stuff.
Did you know that itty bitty girls, wear itty bitty tights? And things that say, "princess" or "sweet girl" not "champ" or "baby boy"? It's like a whole different world.
I wistfully felt all the soft pink fabrics and prayed they would be mine soon. And I started my dreaming.
A daughter. For us. Forever. It still leaves me speechless. I can't think of words to describe how I feel about this. Just...surreal.
Tears come to my eyes when I think of how a little girl will fit into our family. Will she be a girlie girl? Or a tomboy? Whatever she is, she'll be perfect. And she'll fit in perfectly.
I'll have a daughter.
And some of you have asked me how Matt feels about this. He says he doesn't believe them. But to tell the truth, I don't believe him. I think he's just afraid of getting his hopes dashed.
Matt has wanted a little girl since I was pregnant with Matthew. Before, actually. She already has him wrapped around her tiny little finger, and neither of them are even aware of it. I can picture him with his little girl. She will be his princess. She will be the apple of his eye. Of course he loves his sons more than anything, but a little I think of it, and the tears come, instantly.
I think of them at her wedding (yes, a long ways off, but I know how fast this all goes!!) I can see the look on his face when he walks her down the aisle.
Yes. This is a very, very good thing. And I am oh so grateful that accidents happen.
Who knows, she may even complete our family. You'll never get me to commit to that though...she may need a sister!! ;-)


Crayonsetc said...

And you are so right... little girls just have a way of doing that with their daddy's... right around their little finger!!! you even have me crying!

Shell said...

Awwww... I am sooo happy for you guys-now you just need to move out here. lol Girls are so much fun to get clothes for, and think, you get to fix her hair in little pig-tails and pony tails on top of her head!

Gina said...

Aww...this is EXACTLY how I feel about Tim and we are not anywhere near ready to start conceiving again. But, someday we will have a daughter and already I know that she is tugging at her daddy's heart strings. Soooo sweet! I cannot wait to see Matt with...whatever her name will be! Has Matt thrown out any suggestions yet? Oh, man, am I ever excited!!

****Happy Birthday, Dill! We love you so much and wish that we could be there to celebrate with you! We hope that your day is great and that all your dreams come true!
Love, Auntie Beana, Uncle Tim, Tj & Parker****

gina (UK) said...

Your making me cry with that post ! I remember being on such a 'high' when I got Holly and used to go hyper pinning up the wet little pink tights on the drying line.

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